Hello world!

I've spent so much money for the past 14 days since the my heart was sliced into a million pieces recently. Below are the items necessary for me to numb the pain I'm experiencing.

1. 2 weeks supply of Xanax (for me anxiety attacks) & Lexapro (for depression) - RM250
2. I-pod Nano (to replace the MP3 player which reminds me of the heartbreaker)-RM1190
3. Radio Transmitter for the I-pod (absolutely useless, it only transmitts mono signals in to the car stereo) -RM350
4. Metal cover for the I-pod - RM99
5. A new swatch (I've always been obsessed with Swatchs, the heartbreaker hates 'em but it doesnt really matter anymore does it?) -RM190

Item no 1 has been the most useful of the lot. Money well spent! I hope to get a back-up supply on saturday which will be my follow up appointment with the shrink.

Phil told me the best way to get over a girl is to get on top of another. But seriously, would any girl want to fuck someone in my state of mind? I'd probably have to spend more money to get one to fuck me. Cant afford it mate! Besides I can't even get my willie up anymore from all the stress. I think i've been cursed! I dont want to take anymore medication (Viagra) to deal with that. It might just react with the medication I'm already taking. But anyway, girls out there, if u're reading, dont worry, once i'm over this shit, my all mighty willie will be back at it's best.

Anyway, I have to thank Miss N. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for talking & listening to me, understanding and putting up with my emo shit. You must think that i've grown a pussy after the heart slicing. I owe u an I-pod, i think. I also have to thank Mr E and Miss I (they'll be getting married soon, I'm so excited), I love them alot, I love them more now. They saw me cry, they consoled me, they told me it's not really my lost. They told me it's one step closer to finding the right one.

Oh well..... I have to look at my life from a different perspective. There are alot more troubled souls who would laugh and spit on my face for being such a moaner from being heart broken. Well it's not everyday i get my heart broken man! Dont blame me for moaning.

I'm still Alive!!!!!!!!!!